Tuesday, February 5, 2013

big girl.

Oh Ember.


You look so... BIG to me now.
Any day, any day... it won't just be you and I anymore. I look at you, and I'm completely overwhelmed by how much I love you and how the heck have 20 months just flown by? How are we already waiting on your sibling to arrive??

You're going to spend the rest of your life breaking my heart, and you don't even know it. And you won't even know why. It's the best kind of heartbreak my baby, but it's still so bittersweet.

You have changed me, completely. You have pushed me and pulled at me and you've made me become a person that I always wanted to be, but was always too scared to be.

Your little sister will join us, very soon. So soon. And you will always be the big sister now. The biggest sister now. I'm excited for you. I know this role pretty well, I'm the big sister too. It's not an easy one, having siblings, loving siblings, is not an easy task. But I think you'd never have it another way. They tend to creep into your heart whether you want them to or not. One role I don't know, Ember, is having a sister. I am so looking forward to raising sisters. I'm so looking foward to it all. You and I are up for even more challenges now my girl. Adjustments and changes are coming.

Be gentle with me, and I will be gentle with you.

You have always been my sunlight. Ever since the night you were born, you just bring the light in. You pull it right out of me, even when I don't believe it's there.

Keep on shining my baby.

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