Thursday, October 4, 2012

my pregnancy with ember: maternity photos.

The one thing I wanted, more than anything else, during this pregnancy, was beautiful maternity photos.

It's the photographer in me. It's the artist in me. It's the crazy passionate scrapbooker and art journaler in me.

Early in the year I had made contact with a photographer who was out of town, actually out of state and had everything set up. I LOVED his work. The reality was the funds just weren't there though. I kept in contact, thinking Neil would eventually go back to work and we would get it all taken care of. It just would right?

Until the weekend we had scheduled was finally approaching and I had to very grumpily admit that I wasn't going to be able to afford this. No where near afford it.

First of all, I hate, hate, hate canceling on anyone for financial reasons. It makes me feel like a jackass. Like a loser. And like a damn jerk. And other awful things.
It just sucks!

Secondly, I was more than a bit heartbroken. I kept holding out and holding out the hope that I could make it happen.

I was getting down to the wire too. With a due date of May 15th, and it being close to the last weekend in April, I knew it was either going to have to happen NOW or it just wasn't going to. I was rather teary about the possibility that it probably wouldn't.

I remembered that a friend of mine had maternity shots taken throughout her pregnancy by a local photographer. I asked her for more information, and she got me in touch with Inspired Images. Sarah was very, very kind and was happy to work with me and set something up quickly.

I was hesitant to spend the money, even though quite affordable, it was still extra money. It was Neil who told me we needed to do it. He said, "You'll never be pregnant with this baby again. Not ever."
He was right of course.
He knew how much it meant to me.

I am so glad we did this. I cherish these photos in ways I can't even properly express.

Maternity Photos

Maternity Photos

Maternity Photos

Maternity Photos

Maternity Photos
(one of my very favorites. that is exactly us right there.)

Maternity Photos
(my absolute most very favorite! there were a few of these silhouette shots taken and I love them. I have this one as an 11x14 in a nice, big, chunky frame.)

There were a ton of awesome images to choose from. I ordered quite a few, finally, this past spring and framed most of them. I cannot wait until we're done painting the rest of the house so I can get them hung up. I still need to order my dvd and I would sooo love a photobook...

I believe these were taken on April 28th, 2011. I say that because I know right after we took them, we went out to dinner with my family for my niece Kaylyn's 5th birthday. I remember I ordered duck, something I have never really tried before, and it tasted delicious. I remember feeling completely high on our photo session and completely relieved that we'd done it.

This was another one of those times when I didn't get what I "wanted". What I originally planned.
I did, however, get exactly what I needed.
I noticed this theme over and over in the last few days. Nothing looked the way I planned it out to. Nothing came to me the way I thought it would.
But it was all exactly, beautifully perfect in it's own way.

Neil was right. I will never, ever again be pregnant with my Ember. We will never, ever again be two people enjoying the last few days together before our first child is born. It does not matter how many more babies I have. Each one will be different. Each experience not the same.
Never another Ember.
Never another pregnancy with Ember.

**all images property of Inspired Images Photography, and shared with permission!!**

1 comment:

  1. lovely post and so glad you have these memories in photos. they are beautiful photos.